Am I selfish??

3rd of January.

We’re three days into the new year and I’m still sleep deprived. I’ve got my daughter Thea sleeping on me as we speak and in totally fucked. It’s 5.45am and I’ve been up since 4am.

I need to sleep, I’m dying here. It’s rough in the house too. Whirlwind of emotions. I’m sleeping when my wife is awake and vice versa and before the new year we had bad news from my wife’s side of the family.

I don’t know how long I can deal with the sleep deprivation. I’m also starving, I want me own space, I want to go out. I’ve not had a night out in over a year and I love to dance so I’m properly suffering. I want to go somewhere by myself for the day.

I’m going to do that actually, I need to have more time for myself.  One day a month isn’t a lot is it? To keep me sane?? To keep my sanity??? Am I being selfish by doing that? Its 12 days throughout the whole year, surely thats not that bad?

I feel like I’ve lost my identity a bit. Ever feel like that?

If you need me let me know.

Comments

  1. Not selfish at all. I'm on antidepressants and had to have cognitive behavioural therapy for me to learn that it is not selfish. I don't take a lit of time but I wasn't taking any. I was exhausted and drained. My children get a much better version of me when I look after myself too

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    1. yeah surely good parenting starts from your own happiness right??

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